reality sets in.

windmills
Originally uploaded by amyr.

today i said to someone from home about a project they are working on "cool, i'll see it next time i come home". then about 20 minutes later, i remembered, oh wait the next time i go home, it's for good. wow, that's still really weird to think about for me. i am so excited, and i should not be worried, but still some questions remain.
will i stay in pgh. for good? will my old friend (s) still want to hang out? will i meet new people? will i have loud neighbors like here (ha ha)? will i find a job??? (that one is really stressing at present)
from the beginning, i have treated DC as a temporary stop, was that wrong? is this why i don't exactly love DC?
i do have friends here that i will miss greatly, so i guess i'll be back to visit (maybe baltimore more so than DC...)
why do i love pinback so much ?(sorry, that one slipped in since they are NP in the background)
anyway, sorry to sound down in the dumps in this post, i'm not in reality. i am ready to go. each day work provides me more and more reasons as to why it's time to move on.

reminder of the day: wow, i really like the superdrag cds i have (thought while listening to regretfully yours and head trip in every key.

so that's all, i'm off to pack.